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the amount of guilt or shame i’ve felt in a lifetime around being my self, my honest to goodness human flesh body and soul carrier

why does this happen to humans?
what possibly possesses us to do such disservice to our selves, our bodies and hearts and our light
our futures
our hopes and dreams and wishes and greatest fantasies

guilt for being present
guilt for existing
guilt for literally surviving.

what a tragic story.
all of us are in this struggle, too - literally all of us -
which almost actually makes it more comfortably and acceptably tragic?

i’m not sure anymore.

what i’m sure of is that i’m unpacking that part of my life.
once it’s all unpacked, i’m burning that shit.

beginning to come to peace with existence is really a magical thing

this journey and mission of peace really brings us closer and more connected than ever before and encourages us to push the boundaries of what it means to be human - to honour space for guilt and shame but then use it to empower yourself and evolve, transcend

transcendence is condescension
but expanding horizons, now that has my attention.